Old picture....same beautiful girl. She is growing every day, how can I stop time and keep her small just a bit longer. Stop time and study her eyes as they blink and twinkle, watch her discover her feet and so easily place them in her gummy little mouth (her gummy smile is too cute I don't want her to get teeth quite yet!) leave her for 2 seconds on the ground and when I come back she has rolled ten feet away from her original spot. Stop time and listen to her breathe, watch her tiny precious body take in breath and let it out...Life is hard and crazy and doesn't make sense to me most of the time, but when I see my girl I am brought back to a lovely place. She heals my soul, and lightens my burdens just by looking at me. I am her mother and she is my daughter...FOREVER! Thank you God for this most incredible gift. Please let her love me as much as I love her. My heart has grown a gajillion times bigger since having this life inside me and now outside of me. Ahhh...my heart is full at this moment...and now, even for just this moment today I am all right.

Little Buggy girl....

My darling neighbor Julie took these pictures of us at our complex and I am so grateful! Julie is extremely talented...she makes the most delicious desserts and treats and because she is so nice and I live so close to her...I am a lucky recipient of this goodness. Chocolate covered strawberries were great after the baby. Brighton is now 6 and a half months old and gets more fun by the minute! Just this last week she started sleeping 10 hours, HALLELUJAH! She eats solid foods, has less blowouts and talks up a storm. She always says dadadadada (which Robb says is because she loves her daddy so much...which she does, but he refuses to believe it is because it is easier for her to say) I love this little peanut to pieces! My life will never be the same...it will always be better because of this GORGEOUS little girl.

For Sale

So, your help would be MUCHO appreciated. Robb and I are selling our Town house and are wanting to move. We are staying in Utah County, but need something that fits our family's needs better. We live in great community and have a great ward. The Town house is located on Canyon Road in Provo across from Canyon Crest Elementary School in a place called Three Fountains. Our Unit is the end unit, 2300 square feet, 3 bedrooms, 3.5 bathrooms, updated with the best! Pool and clubhouse, beautiful grounds, and great neighbors. We are asking 205,000. Please let your friends and family know that may be looking for a nice place to live. Thanks!

Be careful what you wish for...

No pictures with this post...but be glad there isn't. I have been thinking lately, as I change Brighton's diaper that I miss the blow out days...because even though I was doing laundry more frequently and getting my hands in yellow poop every day, it didn't smell like it does now (rice cereal, fruits and veggies)....well...Brighton is crying...I get her out of the car and I smell that sweet smell (some say like buttered popcorn) so I look and it is ALL OVER the car seat. Yes, at least 3 cups worth had escaped her diaper and was sitting there in her lap and car seat. If there were pictures and a video camera with us as we cleaned up there would be some laughing...it was hilarious! Oh Brighton...you are so kind to give me just what I wish for....

My life...

This is a picture of my bathroom sink....yeah, bottles. Brighton was an okay nurser the first couple days of her existence...and then it went down hill. I was so exhausted that I decided that I was either going to switch to formula or pump...well, my little mommy heart kicked in and wanted the best for my baby girl and I have now been pumping for 6 very long months. I am going to continue to do it as long as I can stand (and I am hoping that it will work out to be a year), but until then, this is what I look at daily. Bottles ready to receive their nectar and picked from the tree and sent to the fridge. I am blessed to have much milk...my freezer is a freakin' dairy. Any how, this is all for the little one...the girl I love the most in this world...Brighton.

Recenty...

Hello friends out there...I recently received this email after previously sending an apology email and am not sure how to respond to it...would love your help. Here it is :

"All I am going to say is that I am upset about what you said. You have no right to say that Taylor and I are ungrateful for everything that has been done for us. We tell your Dad everyday how grateful we are while I am working at the family business so that your dad can pay for family fun and toys. Taylor's and my belief on issues that you have a problem with has been learned at the Ranch. Taylor and I are in recovery and we are doing well. but dealing with all of this family drama is making our recovery harder. And because of this, I am stepping back from this family. My recovery and my husband and son come first to me. What I believe and have learned at the Ranch has made it so that I am okay with not associating with your family. If you have a problem with how we believe things,you should bring it up with Chris at the Ranch. She is the one who has taught us about what things we should worry about and what things will just work itself out. I am loving my recovery as is Taylor and we are finally growing together as a family. We both talk to our Bishop and Stake President regurlarly and THEY are the ones who determine if we are worthy, you and your family do not determine if we are worthy of anything. So as of right now I will associate with your Dad and Mom who i love very much and appreciate, but I cannot associate with the rest of the family. Please do not contact me. I am finally over all of this."

Guess sorry isn't good enough....

A little pick me up...

So this picture is a little old (Brighton is about 4 months in this picture) but she holds her bottle! She totally grabs the end of it. I am still trying to figure out my Iphoto library on my mac, so I am only posting this pic, but I figured that after my last post, I need to apologize and give a little pick me up...and Brighton does just that. I wrote the last post in the heat of the moment...which is not good for me, but I wrote how I felt nonetheless. Well, my little girl is amazing! (no I am not bragging...okay, I am!) She laughs and talks and rolls around and man I love this little buggy girl! More pics to come...more RECENT pics to come....laters!